I don’t know how to start this letter; there are so many things that swim through my mind about you that mixes all together… I have so much emotion in my heart. I never thought that this would happen, never thought that it would be over, and that I would say my last goodbye. It pains me to know that all good things must come to an end.Looking back on our time together brings me to tears. I don’t know why I fell in love with you so fast, but what I do know is that in the short time we’ve been together was like magic for me. We became so close and everything just felt so right. It’s almost as if something brought us together. I thought we were meant to find each other and complete each other’s life. I withdraw into those moments we had which were so consumed with passion. I remember the feelings you gave me whenever I am with you. I felt as if I were in a place where I would never get hurt. At one point, you were telling me how important I am to you and how you don’t want to lose me – that I make you forget your problems and you have so much fun with me. You’ve been by my side through thick and thin. You taught me how to see the world in another’s eyes. You filled my heart with so much joy. We shared plenty of moments where we opened up to each other and shared our secrets, our feelings of happiness, sadness, sometimes anger and intimacy. And we promised each other that no matter what, we would be together because fate had brought us to do so.
To have given me so much, made so many promises, telling me that I could put all my trust in you and that you’d never let me down; it was just in a blink of an eye how you took it all away. By coming into my life, giving me something wonderful and making me BELIEVE in you only to take it all away and cut me out of your life was not only cruel, but you decided my fate. It has sentenced me to a life of emptiness. Never did I think that it was possible for one person to hurt anyone so badly. I never wanted this for us; I know we could have been great, I know that I would have been with you for the rest of my life. Chance after chance I gave you and you just threw them out the window.I remember in the beginning how you treated me with utmost care and love and how you treated me like a queen, then it all stopped one day. I don’t know what happened to us. Maybe reality caught up to us, maybe we just weren’t meant to be.
Everyday, I’m waiting for signs which sometimes leave me with hopeless expectations. Every move and every action you make, I interpret… I’m like a fool watching every moment of you and so desperate for you to notice my existence. The sad fact is that you never tried or attempted to straighten things out between us. You never tried to fight for our love… maybe because you never loved me at all. And it pained me the most to know that you can envision your life without me. How can this be? Why now? Where have gone all those promises you once said? I guess promises are really made to be broken. You made me believe that!
Why did you do this to me, when you knew I would have done anything for you, when you knew that all my dreams, wishes and hopes surrounded you, when you knew that not having you in my life would instantly kill my heart? I’m all shattered and everything I see is blue. But I know I can’t change your mind and more importantly, I can’t change what you feel in your heart.
Today I see you… you’re so different. People tell me that you’ve gone down the wrong road and you’re not doing so well. I am so disappointed when I look at what you are doing with your life.
There is no forgiveness for what you did. There is no pity for you either. Anything that happens to you is what you deserve for trying to ruin someone’s life. I may not have been the perfect girlfriend, but there is no excuse for what you did to me.
Hope someday you can achieve a relationship that isn’t based on lies and deceit. Where you can look in the mirror and at your family and know you are doing good and moral things. I hope one day you will experience such emotional pain that you feel like you are being slowly tortured and kept awake during the ordeal so that you can fully experience the pain. I hope one day you find someone you love and trust and they do you the same way you have done to me so you will fully and completely understand the pain that goes along with being cheated on!!! I will survive and I will be stronger than before. You are NOTHING. You are not worth my time any longer. You are not worth my thoughts or my heartache. YOU ARE NOT WORTH ANYTHING THAT I HAVE TO GIVE!
I was told by someone you were NOTHING but a Gold Digger; dig somewhere else because you won’t get ANYTHING from us…
You are a man without a soul. You got tainted memories and secrets of disgusting acts and shame of infidelity… I got many beautiful memories and a lifetime of them to come. I got EVERYTHING… my FAMILY, my HOME and my LIFE. I got it ALL. You got dumped! You got NOTHING!
So now, as the rest of my beautiful family has done, I release you from my memories. You are no longer the nightmare in my every dream; you are as you always were… NOTHING AT ALL. You called me fool… so who’s the real fool?!
Consider yourself forgotten and insignificant by me. There is NO need to respond to this, I am simply not interested in anything you have to say! This nightmare is over!!!
I don’t think I deserve to be with someone who is constantly lying to me and I won’t put up with it anymore.
I can’t see tomorrow knowing that today, it’s all gone. My life has fallen; I only have faith in God to do His miracle. I look forward to the end of my pain and yet I’ve felt the deepest pain a person can ever feel in his/her heart. A cut so deep that medicine can’t even heal but the pain of being alone is there.
Tears are the memory I have of you. They say time heals broken hearts but what do they know, they’re not in my shoes. All I can say is that I have faith in GOD… that He will let me see the beautiful tomorrow.
“You can’t build love and happiness on someone else’s misery and hurt…”
“You broke my world… but you made me strong!” 
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